bruises

Do you ever have random bruises on your body? Cause right now I do, and Im not really sure where they came from. I don't really remember banging into anything.
You know what really makes me mad? What makes me mad is when I bang my body part on furniture. Like seriously>
Maybe I just need glasses, and that would explain why I walk into things.

I think the worst is probably stubbing your toe.

No sleep for meeeee

I try to go to sleep at a decent time. So when ten rolled around, I was already in bed, tv off, just laying there, attempting to go to bed. Seriously WHAT IS THIS? I spend probably two hours tossing and turning in my bed. I check my phone. I check Twitter. I check Facebook. I check Instagram. I still can't go to sleep. What to do, what to do. Count sheep? Get something to eat? Text? no no and no.
A few hours later I fall asleep, only to wake up at four in the morning. by the time I fall back asleep its six in the morning. FANTASTIC. In thirty minutes, my alarm will be going off. What do I do? I decide to turn my alarm off and just not go to class that day.

Sometimes I wonder why I have such restless nights. I read this thing once that said....
legend has it that when you can't sleep, its because you are awake in someone elses dreams.

Random

I really wish I could drop out of school, and become a free spirit. Okay not really, that was a little to far.

I really want to take a semester off school. I just need time to go off and do what I want to do. The saying, once you take a semester off, you'll never go back is not something I agree with. Its not that Im undecided  with what I want to do with my life, its just Im not serious about school. I need a break from school. I cannot stand doing repetitive things. and the last four years of my life have been nothing but a schedule.

I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it.


I also need to start working out. No I don't think Im fat or need to work out, but  I would like to be toned again. I eat like crap, but my motto is, eat like this while you can. Before you know it ill be fifty wishing I could eat all the stuff im eating now. Im probably clogging my arteries before my eyes.

I don't understand why high school girls think its the end of the world because they don't have a relationship. Seriously, kids are saying I love you after a week of dating. Sheesh these kids are in love with every boyfriend they have.

Writing

I use to absolutely hate English. I thought it was the dumbest subject on earth besides math of course. I hated it so bad because it caused me to think deeply of things, and I didn't want to go that deep into my thinkings.
Writing is very therapuetic. I realize that my writing doesn't really make sense and thats okay, because I know what Im talking about and thats what matters. I had to keep a journal all last semester in english, and I really liked that. Sometimes I refer back to it, just to see how I was feeling at a certain time, or what I was talking about. I like writing because I can vent about anything and everything as much as I want too. I can repeat myself, I can say things that I would never say to anybody else.

Monday

I do the same thing every Monday.

I wake up at 6:45
, shower, get ready.
I leave my house at 7:30
Go to class 8-10:50
Work 12 to 7
Come home
Eat dinner
Watch tv
Go to bed.


I don't do very well in school. I don't apply myself.
Im the type of person, who won't excel in anything if Im not interested in the subject. Quite frankly math is my worst subject, and Im failing miserably. I wish math was one of my greater strengths but it just isn't. Im great at science. And thats about it.

You say

You say that you love rain,
but you open your umbrella when it rains,
You say that you love the sun,
but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines,
You say that you love the wind,
but you close your windows when the wind blows,
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.
_
William Shakespear.


I say all these things, and I do all these things. I feel as a society we are never truly happy. When it's cold, we wish for it to be hot. When it's hot we complain endlessly about the temperature, and all we really want to do is stay inside in the air condition.

We love the rain, but when it rains to much, we wonder when it's going to end. We get mad when we get wet. As girls WE FUSS if our hair gets wet, because then it's going to frizz, or become un tameable.

I love this so much, and I find this to be true.

The other Sly

Mike is seven years older than me, and the best brother in the world. I don't get to see him as much as I would like to, because he lives in Bolivar. Mikes a cop just like my dad, which I think is funny. When Mike was in high school, he use to get in trouble alllllll the time. When we would go out of town, he would throw parties, and always get caught. One time Mike actually got away with a party but that only lasted for about two months. A cop was called out to our house for a party, and had actually come in to scope out the house, and left Mike with a warning. Two months later, the cop had come up to my dad, and was like hey man you have a pretty nice house. My dad was like whaaaat?, when have you seen my house? Anyway Mike got busted when dad came home. Mike also got two MIPS when he was in highschool, and one time my dad had to go pick him up from jail. I never thought Mike would become a cop, but he sure did. I think Mike is harder on me than my dad is, just because Im his baby sister. Mike and I are so close, I don't know what I would do with out him.